Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tomorrow I would like to plant some flowers if the knees can handle it. The youngest wants to earn some money so perhaps I can get her to do the hard part of digging up the sod...
I would like to go shopping for some new shoes and possibly a new purse. I am spending Memorial Day weekend in Boston with a girlfriend and want a few nice things for our galavanting. We are starting our day with Mimosas and going from there.
I digress, Saturday I would like to do something with the daughters, a movie perhaps, not sure. Depends on the weather which is finally getting nicer as the days move towards summer.
Sunday is chill day.. back to work that night.
The daughters and I are going to see a newish singer Eric Hutchenson in Boston soon. It is in a club I have never been too and hope we don't have to stand too long. Getting old for the gigs but I refuse to give up. Then a couple weeks after that is the Keane concert and Mat Kearney is opening for them and I cant get enough of his cd. Terrific.
I finally caught up with the latest episode of 24, poor Jack, lost his friend Tony to the dark side and is dying. Chloe is back and still a bad actor, but she seems tried and true, they all can't go bad. Janis did her share of whining today and got a great dressing down by Jack. I smiled through the whole thing.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Plain and simple is my plight.
Depth in thought is not apparent,
Shallow thoughts are what's transparent.
I have never strived to be Robert Frost,
Just scribble my prose so the ideas not lost.
To be appreciated is certainly a goal,
But at what price to the soul.
I write what comes into my mind,
Often it is misunderstood and maligned.
The readers adapt the words to their own,
Conclusions drawn are theirs alone.
I just know what's in my mind.
For everyone else it is theirs to find.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Being biased of course I think my daughters are beautiful anyway.... inside and out. I know I have written otherwise about them but despite them being teens they are good kids and I have a lot to be thankful for. They are both talented and now stunning with their beautiful smiles. It may sound shallow but I think a nice smile is very important and nice teeth are essential. I am not necessarily saying go to extreme measures but something like braces are simple enough, except for the extractions the older one needed that was barbaric, but over all braces are simple enough.
The hard part for some, I am sure, is paying for it. I am lucky enough to have the flex pay plan at work and they match some of the money, and my dental also took care of some of it as well. But the final bill everything together for both girls was around $10k. They will not be playing any contact sports. :-) I think it is money well spent.
I hope the battle to wear the retainer is minimal, she only needs to wear it at night so it shouldn't interfere with her social life.
The orthodontist, is a nice guy, and very busy. He just opened his third office and be looking for one near you. He is going to need it, he is having his 9th, yes 9th child on Monday. They are cute blonds and out of 9 only 2 are boys. He just laughs about it, what else is there to do. The new baby will be a girl as well. I see long days in the office for this "poor" guy, paying for prom dresses and wedding dresses. Good luck Dr. It has been fun... and thanks for the beautiful smiles.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Walk about like they are the norm.
Yeah that's how I feel today,
Nothing new it is my way.
Glutton for punishment is my game,
Going to make it my new name.
Thing is that the other losers
Don't see it for they are the users.
Only "friends" by their rules,
Allowing the rest to feel like fools.
Heads above the rest, or just me,
Saw it coming, didn't want to see.
That's how it works, no matter the age,
There is always one to set the gauge.
Speak my mind, doesn't go both ways,
Finally told honesty pays.
Getting it out of the box was the first chore, I think they used a small trees worth of cardboard to package it. Not to mention the plastic wrapping. After taking it out of the box finding the instructions in our language was the next task. Not that they helped anyway.
It looks pretty effective, something like you might find on a spaceship. My daughter tried it out on a small area of the carpet in the family room and I was shocked at what it picked up. You would think we were candidates for the British show "How Clean is Your House." (watch it on BBC America sometime and you will feel sterile next to most of those people) It also has an upholstery attachment so now maybe we can get rid of some cat hair. I would rather get rid of the cats but that is another story.
It is smaller than I would have imagined, must have been the big box and all the cardboard hiding it. I might even use it. A running joke in our house, started by my oldest daughter is that I don't even know how to turn on a vacuum. (I do just never told them)
And with the bad knee now, lugging that huge one around was prohibitive. This one I might be able to maneuver, but will only do it when alone. Don't want them to think I can use it.
Now let's move all the laundry baskets from the family room, put the back packs and sneakers away and see if this puppy is worth what it was paid for.
PS husband also came home with two kinds of mops and bottles of stuff, not going to ask what they are used for.
Edit: I have tried it in the upstairs living room and it worked a charm. Easy to push around and sucks up everything. Best part is there are no bags, you just detach the plastic barrel thingy in the front, press the red lever and a trap door opens on the bottom and out drops all the shit you sucked up. Cool.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I have been listening to Mat Kearney a lot lately. Not sure how you would classify him but he is good. He sings pop with rap tossed in. Sounds different and it is but it works. It is white guy rap but he pulls it off, but what do I know about rap. I just know what I like.
And I will be seeing him live in May as he is opening for Keane. Should be a great show.
Also opening for Keane is The Hello Sequence. I don't know them at all but will be looking on youtube to check them out. If you have heard of them let me know.
Blogging from the laundermat since the new washer doesn't come til next week. :-(
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Also today the washing machine died for the last time. It isn't that old, about 8 years but I am tired of paying to get it fixed and going to the laundermat. We do laundry pretty much constantly at our house. So after picking the daughters up we headed to Home Depot and picked one out. We needed the oldest daughters imput since she is the main user of the machine. Paid the bill and I looked at her and said "Happy Birthday". She laughed. And how true this is... when I go to the grocery store she is the one I ask if we need cleaning supplies.. no lie. (We will get her a "real" birthday present btw)
I work as a Medical Technologist in a major medical center, it is a tough job but for the most part I like it. This week is National Laboratory Professionals Week not that you would know it at the hospital. The president of the hospital put out a universal email yesterday recognizing upcoming National Volunteers week, a couple of others and National Nurses Week coming in May. Not one mention of Lab Professionals. I realize nurses are on the "front line" and out number the rest of us, but our jobs are as important as any....I know it all sounds petty at this point but this happens year after year. I sent him a sort and polite email thanking him for the recognition. I wonder if he will answer.
Within the department it has been virtually ignored. In past years, with other managers we would have some sort of "surprise" each day. Coffee, a pizza lunch, bagels, something. These would often be provided by the vendors we use and one day provided by the department. This year, on Wednesday, the manager supplied sandwiches for lunch (paid for by the hospital). The sandwiches showed up and the managers, supervisors etc helped themselves. By the time the techs were allowed to enjoy the lunch the "bosses" had eaten most of it. WTF? There was literally hardly anything left. This is how much we are appreciated. This was all related to me by a day shift tech. I work nights and we usually get the left overs after the other shifts have picked through. I have called in sick tonight (the knee is bad) so I am spared this year.
I could go on and on about the current manager and her gaggle of incompetent followers but will spare you the rant. Sure it is my word against hers but after all the other bosses we have been through I have a fairly good judge of them.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Every now and then an event or story will prompt a humorous poem. These are the most fun to write, they serve the same purpose as the darker ones, to get out of my head and put on paper.
I was strictly posting poems in the beginning but sometimes something just needs, to me, to be put on paper. These more traditional blogs are fun as well.
The bigger question is, am I posting these for myself or are others reading as well. I see the post count numbers go up on the flag counter but are these people stopping to read or just passing through? I like to think some are enjoying the blog. Every now and then someone leaves a comment and that is appreciated. If you are shy, you can always post anonymously. Registering is easy if you choose and you can join without blogging, just reading. I also have a list of blogs I follow. Some are funny, some are more serious and some are my relatives sharing their lives with us from far away.
Your mood is always good you say,
I don't believe you, no how, no way.
Maybe it's for me, your venom you save,
I don't think I am reading into the words you gave.
It was fun while it lasted but now you've changed your tune,
Sarcasm and insults seem to be the only words you now spoon.
What happened to sharing the banter,
Silly me to think it was fun and laughter.
Bored and onto other things,
This is what indifference brings.
Attitudes like this take their toll,
On the mind and on the soul.
Be prepared for the worst,
Come a time for you it will burst.
All alone and wondering why,
Your life and loves have passed you by.
I try to move on with the rest,
Living my life at my best.
Just watching the newest episode of 24 and more excitement. Tony shot himself to look like he was in the crossfire that killed Larry. It was all going well for him but Jack, with his superior intellect and random clues, figures out something is up with Tony. He is questioning Tony when he has a seizure and Tony shows him something (didn't catch what, will have to watch that bit again) and it makes him realize that Tony is on the dark side. There was also a lot of gun fire and a couple of explosions, and my daughter said they are going to run out of FBI agents before they get the bad guy...funny... she may have a point.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I may be stubborn but I do budge.
Forgiveness is a needed grace,
But not warranted in every case.
Put in my place, was not fun,
Did me a favor in the long run.
Hope you are pleased you had your say,
Made me feel small in a big way.
Forgiveness is a virtue, I hold dear,
Forgetting is something I am not quite near.
It can happen it usually does,
Will it get back to the way it was?
I'll let you know if you care,
If you or I are still there.
There as it used to be,
It's up to me I will see.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
What an episode. Still full of drama and over acting, but I loved it. Elisha Cuthbert is the best over actor on the show and glad to have her back. She will save Jack's life in an hour (ok maybe two) and I will be watching. I know I have to suspend reality to watch the show but that is the best part of it. I have enough reality in my life to enjoy some escapism from time to time.
This episode is one I have been waiting for. I had read somewhere that Tony Almeda was going to turn bad, in a big way. Worse than Nina in the beginning of the series. Well he did it and yes in a big way. He killed Larry (lead FBI agent) I liked Larry, misled sometimes, due to being misinformed and kept in the dark, but he usually meant well. I can be fairly certain of this since he is now dead that he won't be turning sides. Of course they could return him from the dead, won't be the first time it has happened to someone.
That is how the episode ended, Larry dead and Tony on the dark side. Can't wait for the next installment. My only other wish for the show, at the moment, is to kill off Janis Gold played by Janeane Garofalo. Her character has annoyed me from the very start of the season. (and nothing to do with her current foolish statements in the press about the TEA Parties) Sure a lot of the acting in the show is over the top but hers is just awful. Bad acting at its worse. Tech people on the show have a way of dying, Chloe being the exception. I just wish they would get on with it in Jeneanes case. I have never been a fan of hers and this is not helping.
Just a little back story, I had never watched 24 until this year. I got into by watching the two hour movie they did at the start of the season (Redemption). It stared Robert Carlyle and I am a fan of his so now I have been catching up with the series on dvd and currently on season 4 and it has been a thrill ride for no other reason than escapism as I said before. I have been able to buy the box sets at Newbury Comics for cheap by getting used copies. Worth the 20 bucks. I'll pass them on to some other 24 enthusiast at some point. They need to be shared.
It has been reported that there will be a season 8 which will take place in NYC. Should be fun if for nothing else than spotting familiar places and seeing them get blown up. I guess this means Jack Bauer will be cured from his most recent ailment of exposure to the disease agent in the current series. Or maybe he will get cloned, or maybe it will be his ghost..... kidding but anything is possible in the show.
Friday, April 17, 2009
I don't know why.
I've asked before
But you go shy.
Silence seems to be the voice,
Used against as a curse.
But begging you never works
Only makes matters worse.
Speak so I can understand,
What's in your heart
What's in your head
Is there time to restart.
Under the bridge,
The waters gone.
What's the next step
Fresh with the dawn?
Let me in,
So I can know.
What's the truth
Which way to go.
Or do we leave our souls to burn?
As hard as it may seem today,
Let the mind grow, search and play.
When we are complacent, tired and bored,
The negative thoughts we secretly hoard.
Eating away inside our mind,
Looking for the happiness it tries to find.
Push it away and look for the truth,
Remember the teachings of your youth.
Live each day and make it fun,
Learning can never hurt anyone.
Today it may be a simple song,
Put it in your mind and carry it along.
The journey that will never end,
Along this life hopefully long to spend.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
No broken bones, just a sprain. She left with a note for the miserable gym teacher (I have met her and she is miserable) and a sling. I left $50 poorer from the ER copay.
Interesting what one sees in a city ER, namely a young boy (looked about 14) accompanied by a police officer and what I imagine was his mother. The boy was in hand cuffs and crying. When we left we could see him in the room next to ours out of cuffs and playing a DS video game, not sure if the officer was still in the room or not. I do think it made an impression on my daughter.. not to end up in hand cuffs, even though we don't know what the boy did to get cuffed.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I have two daughters, one, K is almost 20 (gasp) and the other, E will be 15 in August. They are as different as two people can be. K is easy going and E is......well not. My youngest has been a challenge since birth. A lot of the challenges have been exciting, but fail to come to mind right now. She is very creative and has always been very intuitive. With this intuition has come a "worldliness" and interest in everything and not always appropriate. As much as her father and I try to direct her attention she still asks and seeks answers. I have nothing against knowledge but sometimes I don't have the answers or want to give them. What do you say when your young teen asks you what an orgasm is like. Do you tell her to "google it"? No, but so far I have avoided a few answers.
My daughter is a wonderful poet, mostly angst driven like mine, but a talent in my opinion. She can draw and is learning to play the guitar. She is smart (unfortunately doesn't apply herself enough) She is very free with her emotions, says she loves me with a hug and the next minute I am her arch enemy and the bane of her existence.
I have always been quite lax about punishment and for the most part ok with that. If something happened in public I would wait til we got home to avoid a scene. As she has gotten older I suppose I should have used a firmer hand but I have a soft heart and tend to let things go. This worked fine, for the most part, with the older daughter, but not the younger.
We moved house when E, was in 1st or 2nd grade and even though we stayed in the same town it put her in a new elementary school. I figured she would adjust..she didn't. It didn't help that the principal was useless and all my complaints of bullies etc. went on deaf ears. On to junior high, a new start? Worse, preteens are a vicious breed, especially girls. E "walks to the beat of her own drum" and at that age conformity rules. She gets along better with boys, smart girl. This was three years of torture for her socially. She did make a group of friends but it revolved from time to time. E never really fit the mold (good for her I tell her, it is what I like most about her, but a difficult concept for a 12-13 year old.)
During all this time, I had a hard time being too rash or strict with her, my heart ached for what she was going through so I tended to be easy on her. A mistake? Probably to a degree but it is what it is.
On to high school, she is a freshman this year and loving school. She has a solid group of friends, mostly boys, but is fitting in. She never wants to come home. There is a writing club, guitar lessons, GSA (Gay, Straight Alliance) and numerous other activities.
When it comes time to punish her I hate to take these things away, it has taken her so long to feel accepted and belong. This leads me to today, E texts me and tells me she has no guitar lesson. Ok, come straight home I tell her. She does but continues to text me from the bus, "can a friend come over". "No you have too much to do" I say.
"What?" she asks. "Vacuuming and bathrooms," she still owes me chores from getting her DSi (see blog from several days ago.) "I will do it when he leaves" she says. "No before" I say, and the cycle continues.
I don't know exactly how it happened but it all escalated. Her yelling, me yelling and the friend on the front lawn waiting to come in. I don't know what happened to him but I am sure the neighbors heard a good portion of the yelling. (luckily most are at work in the afternoon) One things leads to another and we are both angry and in tears. Things are calmer now, and I am sure no chores are getting done. I am just relieved for the time being. (I was just told by her that her wrist hurts and is probably dislocated, she has been right in the past and had some broken bones that I doubted, but she has had more xrays than I care to admit and will glow soon. I am waiting for DSS to show up one of these days. She really should go into acting)
Back to the guitar lessons, she did have them. The director called... blah blah about how it is the teachers livelyhood. I know this, I pay him and she is always at the lesson...sheesh. But why didn't she go? She forgot the guitar and didn't think I would bring it to her. Certainly better than skipping the lesson.
Anyway I could go on forever. Things are quiet now and "back to normal". Is there a normal?
I am just hoping she lives to be 15 and I live to be a grandmother. As a million mothers have said before me... where is the user manual for teenage girls?
Monday, April 13, 2009
Bringing others down.
So certain of their wisdom,
But all it brings is a frown.
Forgetting their own foolishness
Wearing a thorny crown.
With their head held up so high,
Their face frozen, image of a clown.
When they see as others do,
Fall off their position, renown.
Humbled and embarassed,
Like the peons in the "town"
Often a veil, a hidden scheme.
Written to avoid, or to hide,
Used to boost a fragile pride.
Spoken in tones used to hurt,
Quick, abrupt, sharp and curt.
Some the wiser, they try to ignore,
Shutting it out, hearing no more.
Wounded and angry, hear the ring,
Shutting your ears to avoid the sting.
On it goes round and round
Back to the simple words that abound.
Keeping the silence, hiding inside.
Living the lie, knowing it died.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
It keeps me sane,
Helps me survive.
Without the pain,
I would be complacent,
Feel I had nothing left to gain.
Doctors try to help me.
Give me good pills.
All they do is strengthen my plea.
I want to feel
But the pain is too much
I already know what it is to be real.
For all I have said about wanting the pain,
At my age I have had enough
It's embedded in my brain.
Physical pain is easier to heal
The rest is deeper
Bound tight with a seal.
Take what you want from this one life
Pain is one of the stronger
Helps us deal with the strife.
Friday, April 10, 2009
It is obvious to see.
Nothing is so important,
That you can’t be set free.
What can be so dire,
To put you through the paces?
Money, stress and misery?
Joining in the rat races.
I am guessing it would be futile,
To tell you to take a break.
Relax for a moment,
For your mental sake.
When your deadline is over,
And the papers are all filed.
Have yourself a vacation,
And go fucking wild.
Tell everyone it’s your time,
Your work duties are through.
No need for permission.
It’s your turn, your time is due.
Say goodbye to the office,
The wife and the kids.
Go on that vacation,
Do what life normally forbids.
Then back to your duties,
Refreshed and cleansed.
Looking at job and life.
Through a new and focused lens.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
It is interesting to see how the other half lives... or appears to anyway. How much is just a "good" edit I will never know but it is fun regardless. The best show is the reunion show later in the year after the series has aired. The reunion show is closer to real time as the actual show is taped, edited and long over by the time it airs. This show is when the real "claws" come out as they have all had a chance to watch the "confessional" parts of the show and see what the others had to say about them. Funny stuff.
The Orange County wives were fun but I think the NYC ones are my favorite. Not sure why, perhaps because I am an east coast girl, perhaps because the city is more familiar to me. Only been there once but have seen it forever on tv and in the movies. The "characters" are more interesting as well and there is Simon the husband of one of the wives who is rumored to be gay, he probably isn't but he is the most metrosexual man I have ever seen on tv.
This seasons reunion show of The Real Housewives of New York City should be very interesting. There are a couple of feuds going on between the wives and some have been in the news/tabloids recently. Kelly Killoren Bensimon has been accused of punching her boyfriend in the face and Countess LuAnn de Lesseps is apparently getting a divorce. The Countess considers herself and expert in etiquette and is even writing a book on it. She prides herself on being titled, not a big deal, but I do wonder what she will have to say about this on the reunion. She is being branded, "Countess to Cougar". Of course this is all tabloid fodder so who knows the truth but the wives themselves. I will be watching.
The new show The Real Housewives of New Jersey looks like it will be a laugh too. There are two sisters married to a pair of brothers and the requisite single mom and divorcee. Love the accents as well. My family is from northern Jersey but the other side of the tracks. Thank goodness for DVR so now I can watch all the episodes at my leisure and enjoy a chuckle after a hard night at work.
What's the next city? Miami, Detroit, who knows but chances are we will be watching.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Why is it you are in my head?
Day after day, it is something I dread.
Preoccupied, you have my mind,
I find myself hard to find.
Lost in thought is my plight,
Trying to forget with all my might.
Time has passed, where are you now,
Do you remember me, will your heart allow.
I close my eyes and I can see,
The young man who listened to me.
Who wrote those letters in that script,
Who's every word, my heart gripped.
They are missing, as are you,
Time has gone our lives passed through.
Should you ever think of me,
Do as I do and let a smile free.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
My youngest daughter is a junior tech tart. She likes to have the latest gadgets as well. She has the ipod touch (which is finally working right) and a cool phone and she just purchased the new Nintendo DSi today. I haven't had a chance to play with it yet but it can access the internet, has two cameras, a bigger screen, an SD slot and it plays music too. There may be more but it will be awhile before I can get my hands on it. I haven't played for awhile but I do on occasion like video games. I own my own Nintendo something or other (one of the older hand helds) and do ok as a player if I do say so myself.
The older is less of a video gamer but does like to have an updated phone and like me has an ipod classic. How I lived without an mp3 player I will never know. The husband is another story. He has a razr phone, can't turn on a pc and has never played a video game. The man is an anomaly in my house.
What does this have to do with housecleaning? The youngest, is too young to have a job and her allowance won't cover the cost of much so in order to get the DSi she had to work for it. She vacuumed the whole house yesterday and picked up. This included the stairs and the bathrooms. Today she helped me clean the fridge, it had been awhile and since there was nothing but condiments in it, it seemed a good time. I won't go into the details, but it took awhile and she did a good job.
To help pay for the DSi she also traded in an old DS and some games she never plays. My share wasn't bad but I payed more than I wanted for it. And since I love housecleaning so much... not... she now owes me dusting and extra bathroom cleaning. Will I get this cleaning without a fight now she has her gadget, probably not but I will get it. I had a friend tell me I was lazy because I don't do much in the way of domesticity and to that I admit as well. My answer to her was, it gets done and the girls like the money, what is the problem?
The oldest has been outside cutting trees down with her father to earn some college cash... it works.
Now if only someone will pay me for my techie addiction....
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
My taste in music runs the gamut. My preferred music is pop and rock, but over the last few years it has broadened a lot. My kids laugh when they see me buy a Limp Biskit rap. Granted I will probably never buy an entire cd of theirs but this song is fun. Called "Rollin' " if you are interested and explicit just to warn you.
I like it when friends share their music with me as well. I don't always like it but most of the time I at least appreciate it. One thing I have learned is musical tastes are personal. I don't like it when someone criticizes my taste in music and I have learned not to criticize others. Sure there is teasing sometimes, like my daughter and Britney Spears........but when someone really criticizes my music or others it bothers me.
My hobby these days is live music..gigs. I love to go to live shows. I have been lucky enough to go to quite a few in the last few years. The children have developed the love as well, and I was pleased to take them to their first show, SnowPatrol, and we have been to many together since. I took the youngest to see Panic at the Disco thinking I would not like it at all, ended up enjoying a lot, of course the live factor helped.. the crowds the whole "scene"
It isn't a cheap hobby but they don't come along too often so I have managed to get most of the ones I have wanted to see. I have travelled as far as Mexico City to see a show (Robbie Williams, he doesn't tour the US) but lucky for me we live relatively close to Boston and most acts end up at one of the venues. We even get a few big acts in our city once in awhile. I recently went to New York City to see a concert. (Oasis) and it was a great trip...got in some site seeing too.
So now dear readers, and there must be a few, who do you like to listen too? Give me some suggestions I would love it. You can see most of my favorites on my profile and will add to it as I discover new ones.
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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
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The above, as you can see, was sent via my BlackBerry. This so cool. I have often had things I wanted to blog while out and about, but never knew how. Not that any of my minds ramblings couldn't wait for me to get to a pc or I could always email myself, but this is more fun. For me anyway. Always connected as the saying goes.
I will have to try it with pictures as well. Always some great sushi pictures to post, or a crystal clear martini. Oh yeah and nature and stuff.
If you have tried to blog pictures with your mobile phone let me know how it works. If I wasn't addicted to my BlackBerry before I am now....