Friday, November 13, 2009
I have started three blog posts over the last couple days, none of which have made it to the front page. I have one started about all the wonderful awards that my fellow bloggers have given me.. God I love my followers. That didn't sound too egomaniacal did it?
Another blog is about the tv show Glee, I love that show. Quirky, funny and last nights show was so real. The character development is shinning through.
There is also a half written poem somewhere too. If they don't flow out in the beginning chances are it will stay hidden and half written.
Sooooo what to do about this clog in my brain? Who knows...... I have a lot on my mind these days it seems. This happy go lucky blogger you see most of the time [I know I lie too] is really only a front for the real one trying to get out. Sometimes I do, mostly via my poems, but a lot of what is inside me stays there. I should change the title of my blog to "Chicken Logic" cuz that is what I am.
Afraid to speak out. As much as I don't "know" most of you that read my blog, I do know several. Family members and a few RL friends some blogger and internet friends that are like family to me as well. They hold me back lest I be judged. Why should I care...thing is I don't really so what's the problem?
Ok, if you are still with me after that disjointed and rambling opening thanks, it does feel good to get that much out. Now on to what I need to do for myself, what will make me a more open and comfortable with what's inside? It all makes me feel like a poser.
No worries, I will blog along as I usually do, but maybe once in awhile I will let out pieces of me... pieces that make me cry or laugh or squirm.. I don't know just stick with me please and let's see what happens.
I would be interested in what you all do, when at a turning point. What you decide to keep in and what you decide to write about.. I really am interested in your thoughts and ideas.