Life sucks and then you trash your panties

I left work this morning without my panties on ! No big deal they were an old pair. A gone pair now, buried beneath the paper towels in the trash in the ladies room. By now I imagine all women and most men (at least those that have anything to do with women) know what happened. (and presuming anyone is reading this as well)

I was feeling crappy yesterday and as it got closer to going to work I felt worse. Typical signs, crampy, breasts tender, tired and grumpy. Usually this lasts a few days as a "warning" but not this time. After about an hour at work I go to the bathroom and there it is, the tell tale stain in my undies-and in case you are clueless it was blood.

"Fuck" of course was the first thing that came to my mind. But no big deal right, I should be used to this. (not the oops part) I clean up and get my "supplies" from my purse. Luckily I always have "supplies" with me. I trudge to the hall bathroom instead of the generic one in the department. Why? In the event the panties were discovered, it would be a laugh in the department, whos are they? who worked this weekend? Endless... and the few guys that work here would have never let it go.

So now it is "commando" for the rest of the night. Not so bad really, I wear scrubs to work and they are comfy, soft and loose fitting-no one will notice. (at least they didn't get stained)

Why is this blog worthy? It isn't really and this has certainly happened before and in worse places. It is just the shit that happens in my life and I am sick of it. At my age I just want it over with. Every month is worse than the one before, more cramps or more blood or both. I even had a procedure last year so this would get better-it didn't work. Every woman I know that had it never got another period-not me I beat the odds, yippee !!

I even asked the dr for a hysterectomy, he said no. At my age I have probably 12 periods left (he is great at quoting stats). That is 3 months or 90 days or 2160 hours... you get the point. He's a man, what does he know? Probably a lot, he delivered my two kids lots of years ago... helped me get pregnant (not that way) has been wonderful ... but... I am going to sic my hematologist on him (I am anemic) SHE understands and tends to agree with me.

Meanwhile too late for this month and probably a few more. I am seeing the hematologist in May. Wish me luck.

PS. I just remembered a worse place this happened. I was on a plane headed to Iowa... those panties got left on the plane. Try and deal with this shit in those close quarters.

And btw I am 50.