Happy Birthday

So today is my birthday,
It is finally here.
Been a long wait,
It took a whole year.

Do I feel different?
I don't I admit.
Maybe now my mind settles,
Stops thinking all sh*t.

Stops worrying about age,
It's only a number.
Going on as usual,
And awakes from its slumber.

I am glad the day got here,
Been dreading it for so long.
But it's just another date,
I can now be strong.

50 is here
And I'm getting the knack.
Now on to 51
Look out - Laura's back.

Heat

I read this to my husband and he felt picked on. I thought it was funny, I guess it is all about perspective......

This is just another beef,
Husband doesn't believe in heat.

Electric we have, it costs a lot,
Pioneer woman I am not.

Wood is delivered cut and split,
To the yard and dumped that's it.

Stack it we must, and what a hassle,
You would think we were building a f*cking castle.

You can stack I complain,
I won't be party to the pain.

Bring some in the house I sob,
I will not haul it's not my job.

Turn on the thermostat I say,
Not like we can't afford to pay.

So again this winter I freeze I fear,
Unless I keep the wood stove near.

I won't be sleeping in my room above,
Too far from the warmth I so love.

Please dear spring come back fast
Or through another winter I might not last

28/50

Next week I turn 103,
Well at least that is how it feels to me.
Actually it's just 50 years,
Said through a flow of tears.

Obviously the option is far worse,
I'm being haunted by the AARP curse.
But might as well take the pounce,
Send in my dues and take the discounts.

Today is wedding anniversay 28,
I hope I get through without getting irate.
We'll just go to dinner and have a bite,
If we don't talk there'll be no fight.

Don't get me wrong, there is love,
Sometimes just need to give it a shove.
Martinis and sushi we like to share,
So for today I'll just go from there.

I hope that once this birthday is past,
My life will settle down at last.
Mid life crises I hear are for men,
My comment to that - hell no, since when.

Rewind

I did not write this song, but wish I could. It by Stereophonics and just beautiful and bittersweet.


It's your time
It's your day
It's never too late
To change lanes
How's your life?
How's your place?
Was it where you wanted
Your head to lay?

But wait, you can breathe
You can see what I can see
Don't waste your time
You can't make back

If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?

Do you like you?
Do you love your wife?
Or did you pick what
You're told was right?

Dream and be
What you feel
Don't you compromise
What you wanna be

'Cause change is okay
What's the point in staying the same
Regrets, forget what's dead and gone

If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?

If Jesus rode in on a camel today
With your cross on his shoulder
Time to take you away
Have you done all you wanted?
Are you happy and warm?
Do you miss someone special
You don't see anymore?
Have you blood on your hands?
Do you dream of white sands?
Can you sleep well at night?
Have you done all you can?
The place I was born in
Stays crooked and straight
I see innocent blue eyes
Go blind everyday

Rewind your time
Would you change your life
Today?

Coffee

Where's the coffee?
It's calling me.
My eyes are bleery,
And the body weary.
I can smell the aroma,
As I wake from my coma.
Pour me a cup don't tease,
Milk only, in it please.
Starbucks, surely is the best,
But will settle now for the rest.
Addiction, certainly no not me?
For a caffeine headache take a tylenol or three.
One cup, two cups, how about more,
Cheers mate, here let me pour?

Well Fought

Feelings never seem to know
The way they ought to be.
What direction is the best,
Not blind, unable to see.

Common sense is never able,
To tell you what to do.
It only comes along later,
When still deciding what is true.

Tell your heart one thing,
Even though it contradicts.
When it belies the basic truth,
Only to add more conflicts.

They say "time heals all wounds"
I'm not convinced this is so.
As with each year the older I get,
The deeper inside they go.

Before I get too maudlin
I'll end off with this thought.
Come on 50 let it rock,
F*ck it all, it's been well fought.

Words

A lot of the words ring true,
That rattle 'round my head.
Getting them to paper,
Is the part that I most dread.

The point I try to make,
Is often lost along the way.
From mind to the paper,
What was I trying to say?

The thought is usually clear to me,
As so many of them are.
Just getting them to everyone,
Is the most difficult by far.

If just one person "gets me",
And understands my rants.
It will be a great blessing,
And worth my awkward chants

Secrets

Secrets that we keep inside,
Aren't necessarily things we want to hide.
But thoughts kept in our own mind,
Put away for no one else to find.

Some are treasures,
And some are pleasures.
And a few are buried down so far,
But part of what make us who we are.

Only shared,
With those who dared.
To be a part
Of lifes flowchart.

After all of my miles,
And additions to the files.
I have come to accept what's mine,
The secrets of my minds byline.

I no longer feel the need to give,
To everyone, all about how I live.
About how it is that I feel,
Or what it is that makes me real.

Vodka Logic II

The logic the next morning,
Is always so clear.
Why did I have the last drink.

As I move for the first time off my pillow
To check the time,
Will my head be sore and ache.

No hallelujah,
I have learned the trick,
Lots of water is necessary to drink.

Poor luck to the guy
On the pillow next to mine.
Who is sputtering and moaning, "oh my"

Vodka Logic

Vodka logic
The best there is
Follow along if you can.

After a few
With only olives to eat
The effect goes right to your head.

Shaken not stirred
And on ice if you please
Sit back relax, and cheers.

Wondered

Have you ever wondered, about the net,
The people you meet and not seen yet.

Are they who they say they are,
Can you trust them from afar.

The chat can always be great fun,
Inuendo, laughs, and a dirty pun.

The topic limits show no bounds,
The tents and scents and imagined sounds.

Would face to face be the same,
Or would a blush rule the game.

I have no reason not to be,
What I say is truely me.

So friends beware one day I will be seen,
And then be the friend you met through the screen.